A Testimony

FYI, this is posted NOT because nobody is posting, ok, it's caused by MYF Sunday @ my church today.

Preparing for my MYF Sunday is a very nervous event for me for many reasons, first, it's because i am a committee member. Second, the commitment of MYF taking over an entire worship service (including preaching which was by our MYF president Andrew Wong), particularly roles which you have not taken before/not used to taking, is simply nerve-wrecking. With addition to that, the amount of guest we expected from SOOOOO many churches - there were 70+ guest -, and most importantly, number 3, my worry of committment as our members are few and committment little.

That aside, we have marked the MYF sunday to be an important event because from the second we are officially installed as committee (me being one of them), we have to put up official restructuring and reviving of our once vibrant youth. This is because due to various reasons and situations, our youth has shrunk considerbaly in size, physically - about 50 odd to 10 plus in 5 years -, and perhaps even spritually. Basically, i have a huge job up my hands. And that is a heavy burden.

However, God is a gracious God, and He makes sure our burden is never too much to bear. Besides, He did say 'cast our burdens', right???

So that was what He did.

I never saw a form of committment so sincere and desperate FOR GOD in MYF before in the run-up to this Sunday. Plus, He even sent encouragement to many of us, particularly me as a worship leader, even last minute (and most meaningful ones) in the form of Micheal Sam - thanks bro!-. And that is not all.

We had a mini-run through of the service yesterday, plus a second worship practice, given that we were all new in our various jobs. So we practiced and had a kick out of it, because we were almost literally falling onto each other. Then something bad struck - i started having a funny feeling up in my throat. Suddenly talking seemed so strainful - i started sounding like Jun Arn (i meant the 'what?!!!' kind of ter-pitched) on the way back after practice. It hurt on the climb up the stairs. And when i lay down on the bed to sleep, i tried to call my mom who was outside, but the voice was totally, GONE.

The night was agony because i was sick with worry. Nevertheless, i committed it to God, and went to sleep nervous. I had lots of sinus at night, almost had an asthma attack, woke up, went to church with just barely enough voice, struggled to the final run-through (i masked it though), but somehow as i was running through just the verse of Running After You, the voice started coming back, and during the pre-service prayer, total restoration. I went through leading the worship without a single problem with my voice, whatsoever. To make things better, as i started worship leading, i was filled with a kind of wierd burning feeling. I can only conclude it is the filling of the Holy Spirit as i have never felt it before.

And to make things better, Sheng Yong gave me a testmimony regarding his father. The people were moved in those few minutes, the installation was funny and meaningful, and Andrew's sermon - wow. Relying on God is sooooo good.

So what can i say? Glory to God!